My Timeline Before Waking Up
•	Born in December 1985
•	Normal child of a mother and father.
•	Started elementary school at 5 years old.
•	Was teased right away during school.
•	Would come home crying to mother that I wish I was dead every day. I do not recall this. This has affected me all during my life. I now have random subconscious thoughts saying “I wish I was dead.” But I do not wish this.
•	All my school life was the same with the teasing so bad that I would just give in and rebel back towards them who would tease me.
•	I ended up with depression from an extremely young age that has continued on.
•	At the age of 11 years old I ended up placed in foster care due to my father getting sick and my mother not being able to take care of me due to taking care of him and her severe depression.
•	1st foster home was okay, but I ended up having a bad time after they called my mother a liar. I requested to be moved out of there because of this. They were good people. I felt betrayed though.
•	At that point my case manager decided to turn on me and my mother and father. She would continue to try to make my parents lose custody of me. As well as torture of me through my faster parents and lies.
•	I was moved to my 2nd and best foster home. The lady loved me so much. I was able to be treated good except those kids in school and those of her own children sadly.
•	I was able to go home around 13 years old for about a year.
•	I was then taken away again as I refused to go to school as the bullying was killing me inside and out.
•	My 2nd foster mother wanted me back and yet I didn’t want to go back due to her children. I had not known that her kids had left with their dad otherwise I would have. Though it was not meant to be.
•	I was then told by the judge to be placed in a foster home without ANY other children, but my caseworker decided to place me in one with 7 other children and grown adults too. This would be my 3rd home.
•	At my 3rd foster home I was starved, pushed physically, threatened to be killed, and other things that I cannot recall, along with one form of sexual abuse. I declined and started to refuse to do anything as I was sick of running stairs until I’d get sick and puke and have to clean it up. She also would work with my caseworker to make sure I did not get to go visit my parents sadly. I know now it was all a test on me.
•	Finally the bitch of a foster mother said I was self harming and harming the other kids, which I would do nether of in my life. I loved those kids and would have protected them with my life. But sense I refused to do stuff she had me sent to a children’s home in my state.
•	1st children’s home 4th placement which we will call CC. Which at CC when I got there I was placed in the locked unit for “my” safety. I was not treated badly there but others were. I at least got to where I was only there a few months. They realized I never would of or could have done this. At CC I was able to at least help someone who I grew close to and help her. Sadly I have yet to find her again and I doubt I will.
•	Soon I was found a 4th foster home. 5th placement. They were great until they decided to get another foster child who required 36hr days unlike a normal child. Basically all focus went to her instead of me. It got as bad as letting me sleep all day and eat after they went to bed. They had cared but school was bad still with the bullying and the lack of caring at the foster home. So it ended up they decided to send me to another children’s home due to different reasons. The night before I was awoken by a bucket of water being dumped on me and being beaten with a pillow. I was so confused as they shouted at me for racking up a bill on their daughters computer for around $300 plus. I loved computers but at that time I did not bother with their computers except on that did not have the internet. So they decided to take me back to CC.
•	Back at CC I was left in what they called the open unit. I was threatened with death all day and night. I was super scared. Finally I woke up and was to go to my 2nd children’s home and 6th placement.
•	So we will call the 2nd children’s home and 6th placement I will call GG. So at GG I arrived in 2002. I was 16 when I arrived. It was not bad. It was full of love for the most part and lessons to learn. I was there a year and half until early 2004. I was mostly happy there.
•	Finally at age 18 I was sent home for good to mom and dad. That was 2004.
•	I got my HS diploma.
•	1st college in 2004, dropped out due to fear.
•	In 2005 I lost my father. I started to fall down a hole. I gained weight like crazy. I had always been big, but at GG I had got my weight under control. But now I had lost control again.
•	I was in at least 6 colleges. Finally around 2016 I got my college degree.
•	Then the normal ups and downs for many years. Mostly downs.
•	2018 I had surgery to help with my weight. Something broke in me. I felt it bad. It took over 18 months until it snapped back and fixed itself.
•	So it was Oct. 2019 when it snapped back and healed up.
•	Then finally between Jan. to March is when I finally started to wake up. The first memory dream would happen. Then later when I would talk to $REDACTED I would post in reddit about my dreams in March due to being inspired to post.